It took me too many years to fully embrace the fact it is experiences and not things that make us happy. Or at least a longer-lasting happy. Out were suitcase-hogging souvenirs, sure to languish in dusty display at home, or unasked for at some family member’s house. In were $2 rice paddy rides on rented mopeds; sitting with train station kiosk owners during freezing 3 a.m. mornings, doling out cigarettes and porn; playing pickup basketball with Sudanese refugees on weedy, breathless courts at 7,700 feet. I still make exceptions for art, but mostly because art conjures memories. Or a desire to share, triggered by a fraction of a second too long look from a guest or a narcissistic, alcohol-induced need to show my worldliness. What is that painting by the front door you didn’t ask about? That is Zhong Kui, vanquisher of ghosts and eater of evil spirits. He clocked you before your knuckles even touched the door. I might volunteer that my friend hooked up with the artist after a night of dancing and drinking and translating fleeting love from English to Mandarin and back again (he will tell you she was just the girl selling the art, but he is also a famous ruiner of good stories).
Experience hunting is freeform. It limits, but does not exclude, museums and castles; it tends towards local pubs and art galleries and bookstores and saying “yes”. Agendas are ish, have blurred edges. Think “visit Kraków” on your calendar, not “8 am, castle. Noon, Schindler’s factory”, where you then have to block your schedule for post-tour depression, or two more beers to convince yourself Ralph Fiennes is simply a splendid actor. Walking around without agenda or map exposes neighborhoods and restaurants and parks I might not have otherwise visited, reveals street art and architecture I might not have otherwise seen, lets me walk among locals on their way from work instead of dodging British stag parties, American teenagers, cruise ship passengers on furlough from their sulphuric cells. I’ve recently started seeking out more cultural events. Sports, for example, typically soccer but sometimes ice hockey or basketball or volleyball and, once in a South American country, throwing a metal puck at a box filled with clay and dynamite. And music. Especially symphonies and operas where I always feel underdressed and undereducated, and where the occasional senselessness of tradition is rarely more apparent. One of the great recurring crimes, of elitist culture clashing with common sense, is the tense, awkward, anti-climactic practice of not clapping until the end of a concert.
In Kraków I get one of the last few seats to see Giuseppe Verdi’s Requiem, a Catholic funeral mass composed for an author and politician Verdi respected. Requiem’s first movement ends in a crescendo, a conclusion of a piece that is, I am later told, “metal as hell”. Thundering exchanges on the otherwise quiet Big Ass Drums, the percussionists dramatically gearing up for their moment minutes before they strike, as if six or seven whacks of their marshmallow tipped sticks is the single most important thing they will ever do. And tubas (tubas!). And trumpeters, a row of them, they ambushed us those sneaky bastards, quietly occupying the highest seats in the balcony, just rows above us. The conductor turned dramatically from the orchestra to the crowd and I thought we were about to be enlisted until eight trumpets let loose in my ear. And then silence.
I want to clap, to stand, to shout. Not a cliché bravo!, an utterly pedantic word that should never leave any self-respecting American’s lips, but, rather, because though I can be quite fancy I am also at heart a bit vulgar, a roaring “FUCK. YES. FUCKYES FUCKYES FFFUCK. YESSS.” At the top of my lungs. To look, downward and through teary yet clearly condescending eyes, at the cretins to my left and right, them avoiding eye contact, still sitting, smoking jackets and faux-fur overcoats folded nicely on their black cocktail dressed laps. We should stand for beautiful things, should we not? Reverence might be best displayed in silence but awe should be a chorus. A rebellion. A chorus of rebellions. Whitman’s barbaric yawp or William Wallace’s alba gu bràth or Volodymyr Parasyuk’s 2014 impassioned threat at Kyiv’s Maidan. But the world immediately around me is telling me to be cool. So there I sit.[1]
On the walk back to the hotel and nearing Kraków’s bustling Old Town, I hear a voice behind me. A tune familiar; it is something from Requiem. Surely someone leaving the same show I just left, but he knows the words, he is singing in a deep, lovely Latin. I am already lifted and now even more so, and I turn to share my appreciation – clearly this is a person who would have stood with me – to see a manchild, a six foot six boy in a foppish man’s body, walking with purpose, singing, twisting a single rose in his hand. I begin to ask if he was at the show, then realize he was the show. Will Thomas, all of 29, was the bass from Requiem and is a famous-in-the-industry British kid who travels and sings, and who loves this particular version of Verdi’s opera. I agree as if I have heard any other. I tell Will I loved the trumpets; Will tells me “those blokes show up just for that part and then they leave. They’ve been at the pub for forty minutes.” He says Kraków’s music scene is great, and includes a “legit piano bar” in an Old Town basement, where I find local musicians and a packed house. The band does a few songs in Polish, then asks how many in the crowd are English speakers. Few raise their hands, and so the lead singer and guitarist says, “then we continue in Polish.” The crowd sings along and I don’t know the words but blues are blues and rock is rock and even Americana is global (Polskana, Jordana, Hellesana…) and it all feels good. I recognize a Sly and the Family Stone cover and later Creedence Clearwater Revival’s Up Around the Bend and a few others ring familiar, but this is a show in Polish. I love this reprieve from English. Even for a bit, a comfortable uncomfortableness being away from the international language of money, of exported culture, and, explicably, the language of tourism. I miss the times where, without a common basis for oral communication, we had to find other ways. Facial expressions, pointing, gesticulating, international hand and arm signals. Check? Index finger and thumb touching, remaining fingers curled under, signing an imaginary piece of paper in the air. Hamburger? A flattened “c”. Stomachache? Obvi. But also useful for “pregnant”, as when a girlfriend feigned it to get us off the roof of a fast-moving minivan over a bumpy jungle road.
The internet and translation apps have done the world a service by largely eliminating communication difficulties. But there’s a downside to this distillation as well. We risk losing our individuality, our nationalisms, our idiosyncrasies and dress, our galabiyas and saris and choli tops, Hello Kitty backpacks and giant sun hats, our denim jackets and Air Jordans and cargo shorts and even our Birkenstocks with brown wool socks. The selfie stick is no longer relegated to the Far East, the selfie stick is no longer. The world is now a tripod and cell phone. Heart-shaped hands, duck lips, manufactured cookie cutter over-produced influencer zombies. I go to bed annoyed at the world but also at myself: I am becoming that guy, my international sign a discreet finger point and an eye roll.
The next morning I am rested, and then redeemed. I find a breakfast spot with open tables, staffed by sunny, bright-eyed young people and one older man. My age, probably. Beaten. Demoralized. “What’s good?”, I ask him. “Nothing”, he answers. “I wouldn’t eat any of this.” My man! Give me whatever you’re having. I drink coffee, write, eat a five-cheese omelet. The restaurant fills around me so I give up my table. I take a long walk, counterclockwise around Kraków’s 800-year-old city walls, passing between the barbican and St. Florian’s Gate on the north side of town; in front of the philharmonic on the west; beyond Wawel Cathedral on the southside, burial grounds for poets and priests and kings. I cut north along a stretch of an open pedestrian park. Young couples are here, old men sitting on park benches feeding pigeons, off-leash dogs, runners, walkers, tourists, baby strollers. A scene universal. Comforting. I see a man on the wrong side of the chained-off pavement, taking pictures through a small hole in a brick wall. He turns and sees me, I on the paved path and he on the grass. He freezes, like he’s been caught stealing. We lock eyes, me walking, he still. The man finds himself, and then offers, in heavily accented English, “the weather is beautiful”. This early March day, is, in fact, quite beautiful. “It’s ridiculous”, I counter, and he responds as if I’m Henry and it’s St. Crispin’s Day. “Ridiculous! Yes! That’s what it is! This weather is RIDICULOUS!” Score one for commonality. I continue walking in my direction but can still hear him, echoes of “ridiculous!” still ringing, a row of ambushing trumpets for all the park to hear.
[1] That we don’t clap whenever we want during a symphony performance is attributed to Germans – Richard Wagner specifically and Schumann and Mendelssohn more broadly. Wagner emphasized the importance of reverence and silence, but Schumann, through the written words of his alter ego, was more directive: “I’ve got you all together again, dear public, and can set you at each other’s throats. For years I have dreamed of organizing concerts for the deaf and dumb, that you might learn from them how to behave yourselves at concerts, especially when they are very beautiful. You should be turned to stone pagodas…”.